letter excerpts from July 5

I know, I know, this is a long time coming..... but at least I am posting now!

Letter to Marianne:

Sister Clendening, Sister Gandolf and Sister Bailey

Ohhh man. I laugh so much with my companions. One day I was driving and asked someone on the phone "Will you go out with me?" -asking them about splits....but sister gandolph thought it sounded super funny and started giggling and then I started laughing and then the back seat sister bailey started laughing and I was out of control!!! I had water welling up in my eyes and I could hardly see the road and I kept wanting to laugh but I couldn't!!! because I was on the phone with these girls and so I had to keep my mouth closed to stop any laughs from escaping. However, you know well that there is pressure when you are trying to hold in a laugh and so I had to figure out some way for it to come out. I managed a hissing noise. then I thought "ohhh! maybe that will sound like static" and since I was far far from ceasing my laughing...I proceeded to hiss/crackle into the phone. This sent my companions into further fits of laughter and responses from the other line of ..."...." ....." "are you ok???"  "are you ok!?" hello?" baaahhahaha so funny.

Then another time we were laughing soooo hard at the dog at a members house that kept spasing out with itching and scratching!!! It went on for an hour and I couldn't control myself. The laughs took over my body and my smile was ALL over my face. The nice member just kept talking and talking...don't know what he thought my deal was but...ahahaha. it's past now!

WHoooo! We just started teaching a man named Yang. He is so humble and looking for truth. He said he would read the book of mormon! he is looking for something and I know he can find it in the restored gospel.

Don't ever loose sight of the restoration. The gospel in your life is such a privilege. It breaks my heart and honestly is hard for me to fathom when we go and visit those who have been to the temple and then turn away. They actively choose to DISREGARD the testimony that they had. How does this happen? The Kingdom of God is like unto a pearl of great worth and when we don't sell all to go find it...we never obtain it. Luke 13: 45-46. WE have the restored truth in our hands. Pick up the words of the prophets everyday and read from them. Their words are not something to be had once and then be done with them. If that was the case, why would God continue to reveal anything to his Children? Was not the fullness given to Adam. Yes it was. But God knows how we learn and grow and teaches us accordingly---that is he teaches us all the time. Recognize the posession you have! It is amazing that we were born into the gospel and have been able to gain our own testimonies to carry us through life, the trials that come with it, and out of our parents care on to be parent figures ourselves. Leading and guiding people to truth is a very sacred service!!! As you help others to learn and grow you will grow!!! I know you love the Lord and his gospel and I am so very glad of that!

A girl bore her testimony about how her sister was her best friend and she was so glad that she was sealed to her and would be with her forever. Her best friend. I know Eric is your best friend and is your partner for eternity but I am so grateful you will always be my sister!!!! I am so close to you! (I feel) and I have been so blessed to be sealed to you. I love you so much and have loads to look forward to in the life after this one just knowing you will always be my best friend sister. You are amazing!!

I love being a missionary. Some times it's going so so good and then all of a sudden I realized I am doing something dumb or am not being my best. But the great thing is that I can change. Reevaluate and advance! I love the Lord and His gospel. I can hardly fathom what Heavenly Father loves us so much! He blessed us with a great family in the gospel.

Oh what to tell you else??? I want to tell you about my teaching... but what am I supposed to tell about it? I am teaching the doctrine of Christ. That is all over the scriptures. It is amazing when you look for the instructions...what is there. The missionary purpose states we are to invite others to come unto Christ by helping them receive the restored gospel throught faith on Jesus Christ, repentance, baptism, receiving the gift of the holy ghost, and enduring to the end. ENDURING TO THE END!!! Hebrews 6 is amazing at opening up that principle. The temple is so necessary!! 2 Ne 31: 17-20 makes it clear there is more. There always has been more! I am so glad that I have a testimony of these truths. I want to help others understand the truth so clearly that they will have no doubts about the necessity,and nature, of saving ordinances. God knows how we learn and desires to bless us. As we demonstrate obedience we can be blessed. As we outwardly turn our hearts to God, an inward change takes place and we are blessed again.

Everything in the gospel revolves around our Savior. Savior is the most appropriate name eveery! Glorious. Everything. I love Him! I don't comprehend much of what He accomplished but the taste I have of what he has done it astoundingly sweet. It is swelling within me more everyday as I show others the fruit they can also partake of through Him. OH!!! I love this plan.

YAY! And I got a letter from Rhett! his mom also stuck a note in there and I was super excited about it. Ummm hahhaa. But it really hard to describe what rhett is to my companions. I am not so good at summarizing down....but I am learning more and more that being able to do that is true intelligence. I am going to work on this skill of stating simply and clearly. anways yes I got a letter from him and was thrilled.

NExt monday I am going to go up to cape flattery and to forks. We are driving with the singles ward bishop and his wife who are SOO definitely cute and I am really excited. I will be dying sister gandolphs hair today. and .... wanting to do something with my own. But, then again, maybe not.... hahaha we know this dicotemphy well. umm ype. and I found a flower in the apartement for my hair. and I was so thrilled to get those necklaces and picture frame of you and eric.

OH!H!H!H!H!H and that reminds me of the HILARIOUS things you sent me!!! I love love love loved hearing about your travels in Utah land. Bahahaha. Will sounds hilarious. I loved reading about everything and your reactions and I understand the glorious feeling of 'ooo something went right' that you experienced when you opened the waffle iron to a perfect one. I love you! WE are so connected on the brain wave its insane. I can't wait to have kids with you!! THinking of that makes the adventure an exciting one~ Sometimes when I drive by neighborhoods and the mom is doing something and the dad is mowing and the kids are off playing over there and the garage is a mess....and everything just seems like a mundane BLAH spot. I never want my family life to be like that. I live to be with people. I love interactions and laughing!!! I need that in the family I make for myself and I KNOW that you and I will see that come about :)

Actually I think thats why sometimes I just get giggly!!! It comes out all over the place and seeps out of my soul!! or more like pounds out. I am so filled with the gospel light and my own energy of excitement that when I go to long without being able to pass that on to someone else...it just has to find a way to express itself and if it  so be that it is right in the middle of a converstation when I see something mildly funny out of the corner of my eye-so be it! Wow being in a mortal body definitely has its limitations. But just imagine what it will be like when we have temple that can house the full grand capacity of our Divinity!??? Mind blowing really.

I hope you have enjoyed my ramblings. I enjoy rambling to you. And though they may seem very scattered....read them with the spirit and with the brain wave and then I think you will connect to the spiritual side of my thoughts and the plain crazy side of them. I so enjoy talking to you!! and I feel so connected with you.

I hope you have enjoyed the time with the family all around. Please send my love to all. I do not have time to write everyone. Please give my love to the Jorgensens!!! I do feel like they don't think I care. But mom tells me all about them and I see the pictures and I miss them. I love them!!!